It took lots of effort  and about $150 to move and rotate this shed 100 feet across the yard but in the end it was worth it.  Sitting on new 4×4’s and totally repaired, it now awaits a nice coat of paint and few boards to finish the skirting.  Now, the pipe we used to roll it is being sold on craigslist.

Fifteen times I’ve resolved to lose the weight and I barely ever make it past the first week.  Somehow, somewhere I’ve lost my drive. I’ve misplaced my ambition.  Being thin has become a lesser calling.

Something in my mindset needs to change. I’m just not sure what.

A brilliant look into the dynamics of a family after the loss of their mother.  Wonderfully done.

by A.R. Ammons

You came one day and
as usual in such matters
significance filled everything–
your eyes, the way you turned,
leaned, stood, or sat,
this way or that: when
you left, the area around here rose
a tilted tide, and everything that
offers desolation drained away.

Beautiful beautiful words.
My daughter shared this with me.
I am so grateful.

This may be my favorite song EVER.

"Hey you guys. I just found this test while looking for stuff on language for my presentation in April. It’s really cool! I thought you guys might have fun taking it, too. Try not to look at other people’s results before you take the test.

It was developed by two guys Kuhn and McPartland in 1954: Twenty Statement Test (TST)

There are twenty numbered blanks on the page below. Please write twenty answer to the simple question “Who am I?” in these blank. Just give twenty different answers to this question; answer as if you were giving the answers to yourself- not someone else. Write your answers in the order that they occur to you. Don’t worry about logic or “importance.” WHO AM I?"

1. A Mother
2. A Frustrated Poet
3. An Athlete who is desperately out of shape and damaged
4. An Artist who finds excuses to not create
5. A Grandmother who would die for her kid’s kids
6. A Perfectionist living in a land of slobbie slobs
7. A Woodworker with no shop
8. A Writer whose voice has been lost
9. A Person in a crowd who is somewhat alone
10. A Creancer
11. A Quitter who struggles to finish
12. A Whisper in a world of shouts
13. A Christian who doesn’t like Christianity
14. A Thinker living in the midst of chaotic thought
15. A mismanaged life
16. A Fifty year old woman with dreams
17. A Fifty year old woman with regrets
18. A sister
19. A Friend
20. A daughter

I’ve reflected on this.  Over and over.

All my communication seems blatantly truthful.  And it is.  Blatantly truthful.  Honest.  Dull.

I have a fascination with this wholly sedate side of my life’s truth.  It is necessary.  Necessary for stability.  Necessary to mask my unrest.  Maybe necessary to tame it.

I don’t like it.  I need a new form for my honesty. I need change.